I didn’t workout on January 1, 2013. I had high hopes of completing a baseline workout that I will repeat in 3 months, but it didn’t happen. And you know what? I’m OKAY with that. I’m not ecstatic, however. I’m not proud. BUT, I’m not disappointed. I will do it today. And not being disappointed in myself is a HUGE step forward for this girl. Those who know me know that I struggle with guilt, disappointment, and negative self-talk when it comes to missing workouts. Unreasonable? Yes…but I work every day to overcome this negative tendency.
This small step in my mental and emotional being gives me GREAT HOPE for 2013. I am finding peace within me. I am finding peace with God. I am finding peace in my surroundings. And all without looking or trying too hard. I am just letting life happen. I’m finding love. While I’m struggling with purpose and combating feelings of failure, I am growing in unimaginable ways. I am more aware of the thousands of ways I am blessed. I can’t think of a better way to begin a new year!!!
I have spent the last month or so determining how I am going to make 2013 the year of me. I have a tendency to lose myself, giving myself to my employer, my clients, my friends…and then there is nothing left for me. Don’t get me wrong, this is not the year of self-absorbed me. I am going to do for myself as I would do for others – which has been ignored for years. And I am going to focus on love – more importantly the love I do have. I am going to focus less on things and what I maybe do not have. I am going to let life happen in 2013. I am going to embrace life this year…and trust all that it has to offer.
For the grace of God that brings salvation has appeared to all men. It teaches us to say “No” to ungodliness and worldly passions, and to live self-controlled, upright and godly lives in this present age – Titus 2:11